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The Fight for Serenity of Mind By: Amirahlee Chea


The air grows cold and my skin prickles up into gross-looking bumps,

causing my whole body to shiver and shake as I try to stay still in this brick-hard chair. 


This chair is loud and creaky no matter how still I sit 

with a desk that blocks my legs and ties me down. 


I feel eyes hunting me as the classroom quiets down 

and I suddenly feel like I’m breathing as loud as a tractor aimlessly roaming the fields. 


The teacher looks over at me and the world turns dark, 

my eyes are turning different colors like a high rainbow, 

and my head spins like the beyblades I played with as a child did.


Everyone is expecting me to say something brilliant, 


intelligent, 


and perfect 


as the teacher waits for me to answer, but my head goes completely blank.


I can’t think,


   I can’t speak, 


      I can’t breathe.


I look around for help that’s nowhere to be found. 


No superhero was going to sweep down and save me. 


There are no magical unicorns from the cartoons I watched as a little kid to come to rescue me and tell me I’m the lost ruler of some ancient world.


So instead, I sit there as I feel an embarrassing tear sweep down my face. 


A tear that to me, represents nothing but failure and immaturity. 


My body weighs me down as I suddenly feel like I weigh 200 tons. 


I stick to the chair and let my head fall as the room begins to close in. 


I feel ready to give up, to slump into my chair and disappear into the darkness when I feel a hand touch my shoulder.


“You know the answer don’t you?” the random student asked.


I nod my head confused.


Raise your hand, go ahead.”The student smiled encouragingly, placing their hand on my shoulder 

and suddenly I felt all the weight in my chest rise above the clouds.


I turned back to face the teacher, and steadily raised my hand,


Above my head,


Above the pain,


Above the shame.


Up into the air, 


 Free,

 Calm,

 Serene.




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